sTuPiD tItLeS...

today is monday, one of the worst days of the fuckin week. im off today, and tommorrow, and the next day. funnnn. I now have yet another stalker. another person to follow me around like a lost puppy. and to top it all off, this douche that i really really liked ...idk it complicated, hes complicated, all i can say is, he hurt me, he probibly doesnt even realize it, but he did. but whatever, it doesnt matter anyway. I reeally liked him, alot. But one situation after another and another and another, I cant take it anymore, time to let him go. but im finding thats a bit harder then i thought.

I sUcK aT cReAtEiNg TiTlEs FoR tHeSe ThInGs!i!i!i

It's 9:19, and I'm bored! I have no class tommorrow which is good, but theres somthing on my mind. And, I dont know if i should say anything or not. I guess, sometimes it's best to keep my mouth shut. Because I know if i say anything to this person, they will see me as something tottally different. It's hard to explain really.
Have you ever just thought of a person as more then a friend, but your afriad to tell them how you really feel in fear that you will lose them as your friend?... yeahhh that's me right now. ugh, I hate this. I mean people say love is just a game. But then there are others who would bend over backwards to please a person. I dont know, love is too complicated for me right now. I mean my god, I... I mean he... and me... I dont know for some reason now I think about it, maybe he's better off, maybe were better off apart. I mean who would fall for someone like me anyway? Probibly that "blaze" guy, GOD IM NOT THAT DESPRATE!

IdK wHaT tO cAlL tHiS sO iM gOiNg To JuSt sAy BlAhHhHh!!!

OMG, remeber that "blaze" kid...... ok now he wants to talk to me!!! WTF?? kid, i dont want to talk to you, you are a creaper!!!!!.... well, i wont bee seeing him for 2 weeks so no problem. Next monday i have off, and the monday after that, I think thats when the culinary arts convention thingy is going on! Cant wait for that, were going to the city and getting free stuff and meeting chefs and OMFG IM SO EXCITED!!!! .... yeah... so that should be fun! Hopefully I'll meet some nice hot guys in the process.... and...learn....of ...course... haha yeahhh... maybe! Cant make any promises!

Hmm, I guess nothing else is really going on right now, Im takeing bakeing and I got this tottally cool job!!! Soux chef!!! bwhahaha!!! i got to yell at people bwhaha!!! ..... Chef was so proud of my yelling abilities! XD and this week i will have that same job again!... yeyy... get to yell at all those people who sit around and do nothing!!! I didnt even know i could yell like that!!! and get this.... THEY LISTENED....TO ME!!! hahaha.... well, thats what they get for not doing what they are supposed to be doing!!! :)

I was looking at the plaque, this plaque i got from ASJ. It was for softball. the sportsmanship award for 2007-2008. I miss softball. I miss the team! As well as tennis. I was going through old year books of mine and I see how ugly i look... hahaha Looks nothing like me!!! well I guess it does since it is me, i just look bad! haha. But everyone says that about there school picture.

ok well im done, i dont wanna write anymore. Now off to make music!(piano) later!