TiReD oF bEiNg aLl AlOnE

Im tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
Im tired of being all alone and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
I was born to tell you i love you, and i am torn, to do what i have to,
to make you mine and stay with me tonight.

Secondhand serinade stuck in my head haha ily them <3 sooo much!!!
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Still awake tossing and turning in my bed... kinda lonley and cant sleep at all.... maybe thats why im singing a lonley song... i mean GOD where is everyone at 1:33 in the morning haha. well today was.... interesting. rather not disscuss it here haha... still thinking of him... i miss him... i miss seeing him.... god tuesday feels so far away!!! so i guess ill be lonley too.... another second serinade song in my head god.... im pathetic... no i really am. and cold... im freezeing i wish it was summer... the surf was up and the boys were HOT yesssss.... thats what i need some nice surf weather and a hot boy witha good bod!!! perfect.... actually my friend told me to surf with him like now!!! when the waves are bigger and blah blah blah blah blah ugh he has to shut up!!! thats like really cold and im not gonna die of.... cold.... well i mean he has a point the waves are like huge and plus i have a whole body suit so that should keep me warm.... plus the fact that its the end of summer and my body is already ised to the cold waters.... and he has a long board... but also the coldness could draw sharks... ehhh its shark... haha omg i sound fucking crazzii!!! im sorry im not crazzi!!! lmfao of course thats what all crazzi ppl say !!! but really... lately i havent been feeling anything... at all like i havent been feeing happy, sad, mad nothing. just kida dead... so i thought if i do some extreme stuff ill feel alive again... like ADRENALINE hahahah yes i remeber when i used to get that from surfing hahahaha yes that was sweet!!! that was what kept me going and that was what made me surf more... to get that feeling and... man what i would do to get that feeling back!!!! wow its now 1:44 and im still up i g2g before i bore you all to death haha